Day 20-Transformation

I had another really... really... really long day at work. Every time I looked at the clock only 5 minutes had passed. Sometimes I looked at the clock time and time seemed to have gone backwards! So needless to say, I was miserable today. On a day like today, who the heck wants to exercise?! But, I dragged myself to the studio. I promised myself I could do this. I made a commitment and I will see it through... But I won't be happy about it!

Monika greeted me with a smile by name and that softened my rotten mood a bit. James class was packed but people scooted a little to make space for me. Something about the energy of so many people made me feel not so alone. I was sure someone else here didn't want to come either and that gave me a strange comfort. At first I wasn't in the mood for all the flowery yoga stuff but after one minute I began to feel what he was talking about. My whole rotten mood was replaced by his expansive blue sky. As the practice progressed, something he said struck me to the core. He talked about letting go of the competition in tree pose and taking that practice off the mat. Being at peace with who you are inside regardless of others around you. It made me a little emotional because I spent my whole day in a rotten mood because of things that don't even really matter. I am something special inside my skin no matter what others try to sling at me.

PS: My stomach can't handle any more clementines!!!